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Monday, December 24, 2012

End of Semester 1 of 2012/2013 Session, Girls' Generation 2013 Comeback, New Year 2013

the time I was writing this, it is 3:22am.
I was thinking of updating this blog as maybe the next time I'll update it probably it's already in 2013. who knows? >.<
Actually I was waiting for SBS Kpop Super Concert to finish download as I downloaded the HD one hence = 3GB -____-;;
the waiting is quite long and I actually already so sleepy but I got to wait for this download to finish first.

Last Friday was the day I submitted my report for my final year project. the report may not be perfect, but I'm quite 뿌듯 that I actually finished the whole thing. It may not that thick like everyone else, but I think it have everything that needed(?) idk... guess i have to wait my result to know that... it was chaos that day... 21 November 2012... the day the Mayans predict as the end of the world... i survived and I actually survived and managed to submit this report despite the rain and the short time... thanks to the faculty staff that still there and not going home yet and still willing to accept my report hehehe :D

A commemorative pic of the report before it was submitted

After submitted the report, it kinda concluded the studies of my suppose last semester of my undergraduate bachelor degree. Now what left is the finals in January 2013. I have to work hard in earning some As to make up for my CGPA... idk, i hope i'll succeed ^^ pray for me >.<

Alright, KPOP latest news.... hey, it's 2013 in coming hence, it's time for Girls' Generation comeback ^^
Today, the girls just finished their recording for their comeback show in MBC. it'll be aired on January 1st 2013 for their comeback. 20 hours+ of recording... they must've been so exhausted but it's all for fans... I love their determination and professionalism. Indeed Girls' Generation :)
Along with this comeback, they also release a pre-release song and mv called Dancing Queen. it's actually a remake of Duffy's Mercy. the MV was actually being shot in 2008. it suppose to be their comeback song in 2008 instead of Gee. However since they have some issue on the copyright of the song, all of the promotion, mv, song of DQ is being put in the dungeon. Only now they release it to fans as a gift... hehehehe :D 
but I gotta say, if they were actually going to comeback with DQ in 2008 instead of Gee in 2009, I think they probably wont be as successful as now. DQ is good but Gee is just great. Gee is legend. Gee what make who's Girls' Generation is now. well, that's what i think tho. 

Anyway, enjoy 2008's Girls' Generation Dancing Queen ^^

Girls' Generation Dancing Queen

Here some of the teaser pictures of Girls' Generation I Got A Boy:
the main logo of I Got A Boy

I Got A Boy tattoo on Hyoyeon 


Kid Leader Taeng ^^ I like this teaser pic more than the other one :D

Jessica... no word to say more on her ^^

Purple hair Sunny

보석 보다 빛나는 파니 파니 티파니 ^^ 

Oh yeah funky Kim Hyoyeon :D 

KwonYul 멋져 ^^

색시한 Choi Sooyoung :D

아기 귀요미 Yoona ^^

Nothing can describe maknae other than HOT and SEXY. from now on, she's SeoHOT or SeoSEXY ^^

Bonus:  
I'm totally turn into Jessbian for Jessica ^^ Jessica+ bra >.<

Group photos:  



I love the concept of these teasers... sexy and funky ^^ more teaser pics at http://girlsgeneration.smtown.com/Intro
Simply put, cant wait for January 2013 ^^

today is 24th December 2012 and tomorrow is already Christmas... so means that 2012 will soon come to end and January 2013 will welcome us soon. May 2013 will be a better year for all of us than 2012. 
Fighting everyone!
to everyone that will celebrate Christmas, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone :D


Saturday, December 8, 2012

FYP and my Supervisor

yesterday I was practically didnt have sleep at all.
I drank like 4 packet of the 3-in-1 coffee and 1 can of the Nescafe Mocha.
I'm not really a coffee lover... I just took it because I need the caffeine to stay awake throughout the night to actually do something in my project to show her, my supervisor.
Work out all night to finish it and the 1st part still at 40%. the 2nd part got a bunch of errors here and there with the problem at the web hosting part... I was all stressed out about it.

Then the clock is ticking to 1pm at noon on that Friday.
With whatever I have now, I'm meeting her.
my heart was so nervous and with the effect of the caffeine, I felt like my hands and legs are shaking...
walking to meet her at her room. there's another friend of mine as well. she's meeting her as well to ask about the post-evaluation on her system.
I'm not even reach that part yet and the VIVA is totally confirm for this upcoming Friday and I'm suppose to be the 3rd person.

First we were discussed about my friend part first. I took the note as well. what should I've done for the post-evaluation part. For the slides as well. She keep remind on getting my confidence during the presentation day later. She knew me too well. last time, I was so nervous that my mouth barely talk about what I should present. This time, I didnt know yet who is my panels. yes, the nervousness at it peak. well it supposed to.

When it's time to show her my project, I just show everything to her. It's not like she really like it but she's not really criticized it in a bad way. she still give a lot of great advice for me to fix it and make it more interesting. The fact that she's so kind. Her kindness really touched me a lot. I have like only 5-6 days more to actually finished everything and she's not mad or anything but she was like just hope i can finish it. "Just finish the whole thing and it can work functionally. Later if you want to make it more pretty and interesting, you can fix it". This words seriously blow me some good spirit in me. the day I dont have any sleep, try to finish this, I'm at the verge of giving up, she just ask me to finish it and she actually like the whole concept of it. I felt so touched with her kindness. I was thought that if she actually mad with me since my work is not really good and I think most my friends that have her as their supervisor had really done a great job is so far better compared to what I have done. I always have a soft part in me that will always remember people that touched me throughout my life. it makes me want to be like them. Just like my school teacher from my secondary school. when I was in standard 2. her name is Puan Puziah. It has always been my dream to touched people's heart with my work or my words or with whatever I'll do in future. I even promise, if I ever will be someone that teach people in future, I want to be the understanding one. the one that cant assume that everyone are the same and treat all of them the same. instead give them some hope. cause blowing some hope in a person really help them a lot in spiritual way. it give the confidence for them to do better. Thanks Pn. Hannyzura. InsyaAllah I'll remember you forever. InsyaAllah :) and I'll try my best on this project InsyaAllah.


Thursday, December 6, 2012

FYP & VIVA

First post in the December :)
It's the 6th on December now. We're reaching to 2013 before we even realize it.
Yes, the stress time have come now as the VIVA was said to be next week yet my project was still in 20% or maybe less.
IDK why but I kinda lost... lost in time... lost in everything. I didnt have the initiative to start it and even when I already started it, I lost the motivation to continue it.
tomorrow I have to show my supervisor what i have done these past one week and my mindset is to just 버려 my sleep time and just continue making it tonight and yet I'm still here writing this blog post.... -___-
see...
the problem with me is instead of trying to overcome the problem, I'm running away from it.
worried about it yet I didnt do anything about it.
That's totally my problem.....
this suppose to be my last semester but my attitude has gotten worsen.
I dont know what to do with my life anymore...
and the fact that i pay attention to my kpop life more than anything what make it worst.
I know that I need to get away from this kind of life but i dont know how..
this semester is worse than last semester.
tho last semester I was busy with things here and there, I still have purpose, goal or something.
However, now...
I just lost. Lost in my own life... lost...
Lost....
Lost....
Lost....
What should i do?
even when praying to Him, I felt like I dont deserve to ask for anything cause I've been so far from Him.
yes, it's better to ask than not do anything...
Things that I really really want to ask Him now is to make my heart at ease tho i dont actually deserve it.
to wasted a lot of time, it is my fault, to postpone my works, it is my fault.
that's why i have to deal with the consequences.
I just hope He can calm my heart a bit.
I may not be a genius. I may be a lazy, a non-determination person, a not hardworking person, but I'm not a quitter.
I cant just give up... with this small hope in me of not gonna quitting, I'm going to continue this.
I will finish this FYP project by hook or crook. it may not be an A but it may be a PASS or a B or a B- or busuk2 pun C+ >.<
I need to step up my game a bit.
I'm going to start now :D
Wish me luck (if anyone is reading this blog anyway... lol XD)

- oh yeah, I was actually want to update a post about my family vacation last 2 weeks. I guess I'll just update it later ^^V -

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

KPOP Latest Scandal: IU-Eunhyuk



It has been awhile I'm writing here...
well, I was feeling like writing the "it" thing that happened in kpop world these days...
well, it's the IU-Eunhyuk scandal.

I was actually found about the rumor first was like in early of November...
well, since people was posting the pictures of assumely they having the couple items... searching about it at naver and all cause their name actually on the trended list.
my results was just a mere rumors since the only they have is the couple items that may be true or may be not.

So I was just let it past.... until on the 10th November, breaking news of IU “accidentally” posting one 불편한 selca of her and Eunhyuk and deleted it right away after that…
The selca was seen as really disturbing as Eunhyuk’s face have the “after-sex” face…
Since the one that post it was IU, her image was go down the drain… then LOEN came up with this most lame excuse ever. Seriously…
Eunhyuk was visiting her in Summer because she was sick… and they are just having a sunbae-hoobae relationship. Nothing serious. It just make people more suspicious. Cause even if the selca is not an “after-sex” selca, the selca still kinda looks intimate to me…
It is debatable on that pic. 

Well to me, it has been awhile kpop being strike with huge scandal. The last one was T-ara and Nichkhun and if Seungri’s sex scandal is consider big, then it can be included as well but then the way YG handle Seungri’s case just make it just a so-so thing… well maybe because I’m not really a fan so I didn’t know how serious it is… >.<

T-ara’s scandal 3-4 months ago manage to make me become a full-time netizen. Searching all kind of information on them at Nate Pann, Daum Telzone, Bestiz etc. lots of hate generated nonetheless. But then , the conclusion of their case was like leave hang just like that… lots of involving sick media play by a guy name Kim Kwangsoo and I just cant bring myself to see T-ara the same anymore… idk why…
Khun’s case was solved quietly as he went to hiatus for like almost 5-6 months(?) well, at least he’s reflected…

With IU, my life as netizen has come back… since it happened during my semester break, it kinda give me the urge to become the full time netizen. Again search at nate pann, daum telzone, bestiz etc. and I actually spent my 1 week holiday with that useless thing instead of trying to finish my FYP with the current rate of progression is 10%. Luckily, my supervisor postpone our meeting to next week. Hence, I still have a week to actually show her something… I just have like few weeks more… OTL This is my serious problem. Seriously… -___-;;
I hate myself to be like this too… 

anyway, back to IU and Eunhyuk story, tho I may not an Uaena, but I like IU. I like her since I saw her covering kpop songs with her guitar back in 2009. She’s good. Talented. Then, I listen to her debut song, Mia. I totally freaking love her cause Mia just my cup of tea kind of song.  Later, I knew that she have some cutesy songs like Boo and Marshmallow. I was not really into her at all… cause frankly speaking eventhough SOSHI is doing that kind of concept too, I actually not a fan of kpop cutesy stuff hahahahaha xD well I guess SOSHI is just different >.<

Then in 2010, she’s rising to the fame with Good Day and being called as the National Little Sister. Until she release her repackaged album with a song called “The Story I Didn’t Know”, I return to her back. Since the song so freaking sad and I like this kind of song. Her emotion that she portrayed in the song, so freaking good. When it was first released, I was actually felt tear up to the song. There’s another song in the repackaged album called, Cruel Fairytale. That song is great too since the lyrics is about few fairytales. It was really well made. I fall for the Lee Jieun that I used to fall in love to again.

I sign up for WeHeartIU forum too and now, with the current things that happening right now is like a wake up call for me to support that little sister again. I don’t want to see her career go down the hill… and surprisingly, with this scandal happened, I was actually getting to know her more. Actually, even before this, I used to watch her in variety shows here and there and I get the gist of what kind of person she is. Opposite to her innocent-like image that media and her company put her into, she’s pretty 털털한 여자? She’s bubbly in her own way… cute in her own way…  pretty strong… she said in strong heart before, that she’s not a girl that easy to cry but when she saw Kim Boa finally got to debut, she tear up happiness.
That ‘s why I was kinda feels sad that this thing happened to her and knowing that this is IU, it’s possible that she’s accidentally uploaded that picture since she's the clumsy and twitter/technology illiterate. 

Recently, I watched her in Go Show too and she told on how recently she almost couple up with someone and yet she called it off cause the guy was sorta 밀당 with her. Indeed somehow watch it after the show, the guy could probably be Eunhyuk. Either way, I’m just a fan that knowing her from far away. I’m not someone that close to her. What can I do just keep supporting her. That’s all. Since she’s a great singer-songwriter, I really want to see her be more successful as a singer. Doing things that she likes. She survived in getting debut after being rejected by a lot of company, I’m sure she can overcome this as well. Seeing how she still got a lot of people backing her up, I kinda feel relieved. There are not only samchon and oppa fans that still supporting her but her unnie, imo (aunt) fans also still supporting her…

IU is one of idol-singer that actually cater to all kinda demographic like  SOSHIl. Well, they being called as National for a reason…

Oh yeah, because of this scandal, I actually discover a lot of IU’s songs that I actually like. Like in her latest album, Last Fantasy, she actually wrote her own song called Lost Puppy. So freaking cool. The lyrics are awesome, the melody… again just 스타일 kinda song. The 슬픔 type of song. She also wrote the lyrics for 4am song which was composed by Corinne Bailey Ray. Jazzy kinda of song. Indeed awesome. Her latest EP, Spring of 20 years old, was also awesome. Got 그애참싫다, 하루끝 and her own self composed song, Peach.


IU - Lost Puppy (self-composed song)



IU - 4am



IU - 그 애 참 싫다 (I Really Hate Her)


That’s why I don’t want her career to just go down the drain because she’s one talented kid seriously. I was reading her tweets with fans on  10 Nov, before she accidentally released that pic, it’s sad because this one fan ask her to just go to sleep now but she said since tomorrow she didn’t have any schedule, she going to sleep all day long but since this 사건 happened, I’m sure she definitely didn’t get her long sleep that day…. ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
I just hope that this is a learning process for her… people make mistakes…  Hope she’ll continue to make good music like always ^^
IU FIGHTING!!!  이언니, 지은이 항상 응원할게! 화이팅!

Oh yeah, IU, to me you still the cute little sister no matter how I see you. ^^ when you dont even try to be cute too, you're still cute. Just keep on smiling from now on okay :D






P/S: I really need to step my game a bit in completing my FYP. Damn Mira!!!

to the haters........

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Pretty Little Liars [May contain Spoiler]


It's my time for spazzing over this show. Hahahahahaha XD 
I just finished watching the 2nd season of this show. Just like season 1, this season also so freaking awesome.
"A" is becoming more bitchy in this season that at some part, I really want to strangle her. Seriously. 
It actually has been awhile since I didnt watch any American shows. kinda miss it actually. one day, was somehow randomly encounter the torrent for the 2nd season of this show. straightly downloaded it and it's worth it. 
It's spectacular and the Season 3 already begun too. thinking of downloading it too but I was kinda waited for all season to finish first cause it'll be much more fun if I watch in the straight marathon style >.<

Season 2, finally they unveiled who "A" is. I was actually kinda spoiled already cause I was accidentally searching for PLL and open the Season 3 wiki. thus, it already told who's "A". then again, looks like "A" is not finish yet cause apparently she has a team and looks from the last scene from the last episode in the Season 2, seems like there's someone bigger than her that makes she do things for her. 

The thrilling part in this season seriously overwhelmed. There are few episodes where I constantly close my eyes. hahahahah XD 
The things that I love about this show also is that it's good to see all kind of relationship in this. Love relationship between couples, family and the best part is the friendship between them. I'm glad that they explained that how all of them being gathered under Ali's arm. becoming Ali's winggirls. All of them was like nobody before they met Ali. Spence was so nerd, being a real Hastings that not so cool in terms of appearance... the nerdy one. Chubby Hannah... but she's cute tho hahahaha ^^ the weird style girl, Aria with her pink hair and all... only Emily that looks the same from before until after Ali left. 
I envy their relationship as friends. even their relationship with their mother too. except for Spence. I just love the way they talk with their mom. Hannah, Aria and Emily. they seems so sweet... well, cant really be like that with my mom cause I'm just an awkward girl that everything affection things to me become awkward hahahaha XD 

oh yeah, couple-wise, if before this, I'm so OTP-ing SPOBY but this season totally change me. Caleb is freaking HOT!!!! *_* 
if before, I'm not really in favor of Ezra-Aria couple, seems like this season totally open me up to them but seriously I think Caleb and Hannah top all couple right now :D 
they really looks like they really suit with each other. He's so handsome and hot, she's sexy and hot too... ^^
so many good looking people in this show. 
I also think that Em really lucky in partners... just in 2 season of this show, she already hooked up with 3 people. make it 4 if you count Ali too >.< but yeah, 1st love still top all I think. It just so sad seeing Maya ended died... it must be hard for Em.
She just surviving from "A" thinking that everything will be back to normal and then  another storm come...
I also kinda respect how her parents is opening up to her when she coming out to them.
oh yeah, Holly Marie Combs will always have a special place in my heart. since the day I knew her as Piper Halliwell, as the Charmed One (my favorite show EVER for my entire life!!!! ^^ ) 
I love her acting. when she cries, she can really make me cry along with her.... 


it's true... bond between family and the relationship between friends rules out everything obstacles or odds that come through your life... as long as you have somebody that loves you for who you are, and always be there for you, that's all matters... 

-end of rants-

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Concentration, Julia, H.O.T

which one to start first? hmmm....
let's just start dgn concentration...

Concentration, 집중
i dont know why but this thing is so hard for me lately. as usual, having a internet obsession...
cant seem to put my mind at the right place to do work instead. OTL
my fyp still berada di awang-awangan. this is the 2nd FYP. it's already 3rd week, and i didnt meet with my supervisor yet. dont want to make the same mistake like last semester yet i didnt have the high determination to make it... OTL
i know the solution is within me.
ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
wish me luck in finding my priority and the determination in me.... InsyaAllah... :(

Julia
This is about kru produksi drama Julia yg sedang ditayangkan kat TV3 slot Akasia, setiap ptg tu. okay, speak malay jap lol XD
aku x tau pun sebenarnya ada drama ni. skali tgk la Kak JC duk tweet2 kat my t-line using the hashtag #Julia. was just okay until tetiba ada org sentap and mensi terus kak JC. rupa2nya org tu turn out to be one of kru produksi drama tu. dia probably tgh monitor hashtag #Julia tu pastu sentap terus dihamburnye kat Kak JC. jd la pedebatan besar antara mrk. ingatkan hbs smpai mlm smlm jer. tgk pg ni punye tweet, org tu x hbs2 lg... pdhl kak jc x mensi or say anything to him/her. not sure gender apa tp nama cam nama perempuan, gmbr mcm lelaki, bila kak JC dan dia berdebat, terkeluar perkataan 2 alam, melenting blk... so kite biarlah je kat situ... hehe :D
to me, the person seems to be too sensitive or just not open to any criticism towards the drama. xde la. taula, semua keje dorg wat shooting kat korea tu sume susah apa sume, tp org cuma bg pendapat, x suke, terus attack. pastu bila org dh x bising, dia keep lg backtrack/stalk ppls tweet pastu mention lg... lolz XD
kat sini jer nmpk sapa yg butthurt/terlebih sentap.
for me, as someone that work with the drama production, they should've be more open to any criticism. good or bad. aku tgk kak JC bknnya mengutuk. cuma bg pendapat yg maybe blh digunakan oleh phk production tu sendiri in future for the next drama perhaps.
lg satu, kalau this person believe enough in their product/drama, x pyh nk melenting sgt la bila org ckp apa2. sbb kita percaya produk kita bagus and org akn suka. kalau org yg x suka tu, biar jer la. ni x, tmbh lg minyak kat dlm api XD
org lain yg hanya memerhati like me, dr rasa nk tgk drama tu sbb buat kat korea, dh tawar hati dah sbb attitude kru diorg mcm ni...
bkn x nk sokong produk tmptn, tp biarla produk tmptn tu diwrap cntik2, dipromote elok2, baru la org percaya... ni x, org bg pendapat, cari gaduh plak... audience is still the clients. kalau xde audience, sapa nk tgk drama yg korg buat. betul x?
mmg betul, it's hard to work in production of drama or whatsoever. dr storyline to the making of it. tp tula, untuk menghasilkan produk yg bgs, a really good research should have been done also supaya x menghasilkan kekeliruan pd penonton. that's all. >_<
good luck to this drama. kalau ada masa nnti, me check out la drama ni dkt tonton or ceritamaster nnti :D
oh yeah, to know more about the debate, kat sini Kisah Drama Double JC (JUSTcircle & Julia's Crew) ^^

H.O.T
Because of Sung Siwon from Reply 1997, I think, I also already getting addicted with H.O.T now.
their songs are so awesome and actually have real meaning. no wonder they're the legend ^^
H.O.T Forever!!!



Monday, September 24, 2012

September 2012 KPOP Comeback

Since most of my biases are making a comeback this month.
TVXQ, SPICA, RANIA
Awesome! spazz here and there but since college internet line not so good, thus, spazzing was just so-so.
but still cool.

SPICA (I'll Be There)
At first, after listening and watched their MV, not really feeling anything cause their concept this time kinda like 90s style... but after listening to their live comeback at Music Bank, totally fall for it. AWESOME!
With their flawless vocals, seriously awesome!


SPICA's I'll Be There MV

RANIA (Style)
This time around RaNia collaborating with YG to produce their comeback song. Apparently since YG owe a lot with RaNia's CEO, thus he help them to repay him.
The song was cool but indeed it sound a bit like what 2NE1 will sing but at least for me it's better than Pop Pop Pop. I like this one better.
It kinda sad that they're only coming back as 5 member sans Jooyi. Kinda miss Jooyi's flawless voice. Nonetheless, Riko did a great job too.


RaNia's Style MV

However to me, Dr. Feel Good and Masquerade still their epic songs! they're my first kpop artist that I actually chase around until to the airport, that's why, RaNia will always have a special place in me ^^
Forgot to add that my Baby Di so freaking flawless and badass ^^



TVXQ
Already spazz most of everything at last post >_<

Wishing all of them having a great comeback this month!!! ^_^
Fighiting TVXQ!, RaNia!, SPICA! \o/


TVXQ Catch Me


RaNia Style


SPICA I'll Be There

Okay bye2 for real now lol XD
2posts in one day ㅋㅋㅋ


Jung Ilwoo in Malaysia, TVXQ's 6th Album, Catch Me

Yesterday I went to Berjaya Times Square for Jung Ilwoo's fanmeet in Malaysia brought by Holika Holika. Was just an impromptu invite from my friend... and i was like it has been awhile since I went to Berjaya Times Square anyway so why not?
then I was just, "JOM" >_<

Hence, I met up with my friend at Time Square. the event start at 2PM. at first we was just wandering around at the registering table then we realize, only those that have the sticker can enter, thus giving up, we decide to just watch him from the 1st level instead... we went for lunch first. was having a Japanese Terayaki Beef Bento for the lunch XD yummy ^^

then we just stand at the G level to see the stage at LG level. it's okay tho it's far as long as I can see him.
Almost 2pm, the event start with a Gangnam Style dance performance. the song kinda overrated to me actually but since it is korean related, it's fine... we all still jamming to it tho :D

then, the guy entered after that. I managed to record Jung Ilwoo's epic entrance >_< (it's short tho)


His smile seriously so charming!!!! I was starstruck seeing his charming smile >_<
So handsome! so gorgeous! he's tall too :D
was taking a few pictures but not really that clear tho... :( (well, my phone is not really having a a good camera anyway but just to capture a memory, it's fine ^^)


he showing a heart ♥~ ^^


having an interview with the MC


see how charming his smile is ^^ though it's far, I just so happy to see him and his freaking charming smile :D


then, he had a group photo session with the big spender of Holika Holika product


he also had a fan sign time with them too


This is when he already want to leave

He was there for not so long.. he came at 2 and around 40 mins later he left. He dressed up just simple... ^^
wow :D so cool to see him >_<
Jung freaking Ilwoo also known as Prince Yang Myung in The Moon That Embraces The Sun >_<
after he already went, I was just having my Chatime with my friend and we were just wandering around Times Square. Went to the Kpop shop at TS but not really interested to by anything anyway... so just left like that... then both of us so tired because standing so long, we decide to just go home... >_<
Hence, we just went back straight away.

He even managed to tweet that he went to KLCC Twin Towers before he went back to Korea XD


Thanks for coming here Yang Myung goon ^^ had an awesome weekend with ya! :D


Today, TVXQ's release their 6th Album, Catch Me digitally...


The jacket album looks like TONE album the yellow ver. :P

For me after listening to all track, Catch Me as title track didnt really strike me the most but I like Destiny, How Are You, both are ballads and Getaway, a rock-ish song. the others songs was just so-so to me.
was not really feeling it... not really fit my taste bud. I think Keep Your Head Down (5th Album) is way better than this. cause I at least, enjoy almost all songs in it but this time, not really... 
However, since it's TVXQ! it always make me feel ecstatic tho ^^
still waiting for the MV to release :)



Catch Me MV teaser

the teaser of the MV, looks so awesome! thus the MV is anticipated :D
love TVXQ's stage performance. cause it's so freaking awesome ^^


this is the highlights medley of the album

Tho the album didnt really fit my taste, it's still cool since TVXQ is making a freaking comeback!!! yay!!! :D 
THE GODS ARE BACK Y'ALL!!!!

p/s: now I'm just patiently waiting for my 9 GODDESSES to come back >_<

이상입니다. that's all for this post ^^

Friday, September 21, 2012

Today, FYP

Woke up late today and was wondering nak buat FYP ke tidak...
okay, bukak laptop, apa sumer...
seperti biasa, kalau dah bukak laptop, it's not on project or any of kerja sekolah or any study things that i should've been done... LOLXD

Stuck at the internet and all kpop stuff until now.... =___=
this is me... M disease has spread to the whole body... dont know why...
/ledeepsigh

I know I should have start my work now... but seriously dont know where to start first... huhuhuhu
Semoga aku diberi penerang hati untuk kurangkan sifat malas ini dan lebihkan fokus pada kerja aku...
집중... that's what i need... huhu
wish me luck >_<

Thursday, September 20, 2012

New semester, Reply 1997

Was just feeling like writing something since I'm all alone at the lab right now
New semester have begun
Should have been my last semester actually
However, frankly speaking, I'm not sure if it's my last :)
my CGPA still not at 3 yet  /sigh
I know I know, it's my fault anyway since i always like play around and not pay a full attention in my study
dont know if this ever happen to anyone but right after I entered 2nd year, I kinda was just like "let's just finish this" 
I felt that I've lost my passion except passion for korea things (ie, drama, kpop, etc -_-) 
this bad habits really bad idk why
sometimes it make me wonder, is this what i really want?
was it really ever been thing that i want in the first place? idk like before, let's just finish this
tho i'm thinking of let's just finishing this, i still want to at least finishing it in a good way
This last semester, i really hope that i can really achieve what i want
but my act seriously not reflect how it should be done
things that i hate in myself, i've lost my 'purity', 'innocence'
the feelings of actually having fun of study
before this, i think that study is the only thing that i can do
but now idk anymore
if it was holiday, i keep wasting my time with the internet after one lead to another
idk... if ever i really live my life to the fullest... idk... 
too much idk right? hahaha XD
/deepsigh
i like writing but i left that so far too now
i'm still 22 y.o.
i think i still can find my passion
it's still not too late
well, i do hope so
I really should leave this virtual world fast
uhuhu ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
i've been on it for so long that i kinda missed the realityㅎㅎ
new semester, new challenge, FYP to finish and grades to rise up
will i ever make it this time? I hope so
Fighting Amirah! 넌 아미라야!
네이름만 already have a good meaning
넌 리더야 you surely can lead your life
Trust a bit in yourself
FIGHTING!! AJA AJA!!! ^^

-side note-
just finished watching a great drama, Reply 1997 ^_^



this drama seriously great
I've been really addicted to it so much
lot of life lessons, simple yet close to people heart, bring lots of memories since I'm a 90s babies >_<
it's really great, very well recommended
the actors and actresses also very good
tho I'm really supporting idol turn actor but i really admit that some was just really cant act 발연기(?) ㅋㅋㅋ
but these guys really great
the actors actresses are APINK's Jung Eunji, Seo Ingook (Singer), INFINITE's Hoya, Eun Jiwon (1st generation idol, Sechskies), Lee Sieon and Shin So yool

because they're using 90s kpop song, it totally fit the mood really good :D
everything about this drama is great
the OSTs are great too and have reach an all-kill too ^^



it's great...
추억....
let's us all create good memories together ^^

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Raya 2012 & New Novel: Cinta Kau Dan Aku [REVIEW/SPOILER]

Pejam celik, pejam celik kini dah seminggu lebih Syawal 2012 tiba. 
persiapan raya hari tu penat jugakla, tapi byk jgk imbuhan sbb tolong ibu and atuk opah tahun ni ^^
Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Aku ni mmg jarang update blog ni... OTL biasala penyakit M, equal to MALAS XD
setiap kali datang feel nk menulis, sekelip mata jugakla feeling to get away mcm tu je sbb M kekekeke XD

anyway, sebenarnya berbanding nk citer pasal Raya, aku nk citer pasal novel baru aku beli haritu.
duk tunggu ibu dgn adik2 aku beli barang kat Jusco Bukit Raja hari tu, aku dgn my another sister, tunggu jer kat luar... belek2 la novel and majalah2 kat kedai buku dpn jusco tu. tetiba, mata aku tertancap kat satu buku novel ni, tajuk dia: "CINTA KAU DAN AKU" karya Siti Rosmizah.


Sinopsis...
"Apa, jadi driver? Hei Risya, dah tak ada jawatan lain ke kat tempat kerja Milah tu sampaikan jawatan driver pun kau terima? Dah-dah, balik kampung aje. Tolong mak kat warung lagi bagus. Apa, kau ingat kau tu jantan ke nak jadi driver", marah Mak Timah.

"Kalau saya katakan saya tak kisah untuk memperisterikann awak? Dan saya juga sebenarnya sudah mula menyukai awak, adakah awak akan berubah fikiran dan menerima saya?" Soal Farish Hakimi dengan wajah serius.

"Sayang, dari hati yang tulus abang nak beritahu sayang yang abang sungguh bahagia dapat menjadi suami sayang. Abang harap, Risya boleh terima abang dalam hidup Risya. Percayalah, abang ikhlas mengambil Risya sebagai isteri abang."

Sebaik sahaja kaki Farish Hakimi hendak melangkah masuk ke balai berlepas, dia dikejutkan dengan suara yang amat dikenalinya. Suara yang sememangnya amat disayangi, suara yang menyebabkan dia ketawa, suara yang menjadikan hidupnya ceria, suara yang sentiasa berbisik manja di telinganya. Tidak, dia tidak perlu untuk mendengar suara itu lagi. Bukankah suara itu yang telah merobek hatinya? Bukankah suara itu yang telah meragut kepercayaannya?

Dah lama tak layan novel, pastu dapat novel best mcm ni mmg terbaik la ^^
masa sampai climax citer ni, nangis tersedu-sedan aku... dah tu baca sampai kul 3 pagi plak tu lol XD
apa yg aku suka gak dlm novel ni, betapa sempoi, cool, brutalnnya watak Farisya tu... ye lah, dia cam tomboy2 skit tp dlm masa yg sama masih ada sifat2 keperempuanannya. yg bestnye lagi pasal novel ni, aku boleh rasa mcm2 feelings. sedih, angst, marah, geram, annoying etc. 
memula rasa geram dgn watak Suraya and Farah yg kejam gler. mmg x berhati perut langsung and mostly rasa geram dgn sifat Farish Hakimi. kalau sekalipun, Suraya dgn Farah ni jahat sekalipun, yg paling buta, bebal, egois, mmg Farish la... mamat ni tau dia punye ego, cemburu, marah dia je...
kadang2 make me wonder, mmg ada ke yek mamat mcm ni in real life... yerla, aku ni pun bab relationship ni mmg x pernah ada experience langsung pun... pernah la nk try ada dlu tp alih2 mmg diri ni x sesuai or x ready lg utk ada rasa komitmen tu... x kisahla pasal tu... tu yg lbh suke baca novel ni... lol XD buat fantasi sendiri ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

blk semula pasal citer ni td, selain personality Farisya yg aku respek pasal dia, bende yg aku suke lagi psl karakter dia ni, sifat terus terang dia. straight to the point. lagi satu, dia jenis yg suke mengusik.. bubly punye type of person... tu sbb bile dia jadi mangsa fitnah org yg x gne, aku rasa sgt2 sedih.. lagi2 bila org yg dia cinta x beri peluang langsung utk dia bg explanation... apa kes... tu la yg buat aku geram ngan watak Farish tu.... cepat melatah... ikutkan sifat cemburu dia... not being rational... serius dia x mcm cikgu Zul. 

kdg2 ada part dlm novel ni yg rasa cliche and dh selalu gne dlm novel2 yg pernah aku baca tp pendekatan penulis yg to me blh rasa detailsnya, make me like it even more. in the end, the moral story from this novel, kalau dah jodoh sesuatu relationship tu panjang, maka insyaAllah macam mana sekalipun dorg akan bersama jugak. kalau x, x la... you just have to be the bigger person...  think rational in solving your problems... bawa berbincang... kalau x berbincang, macam mana nk selesaikan sesuatu perkara... cuba lihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh... buka semua pandangan... dlm novel ni ada part lagu Nora - Renungan Terakhir, terus cari lagu ni kat Youtube XD 


yg pasti, dgr lagu2 Nora mlm2 ni, and sbb novel ni, terus bg aku feel nk start penulisan aku blk XD

Monday, May 7, 2012

RAGE, DREAMS, MYSELF, MY SOUL, HATE



Since these days the dateline of assignments is coming close…
Talking about assignments, it wont be finished right away. Lagi2 org mcm aku yg pemalas GILORRR!!!!
Dgn FYP yg stuck dekat Chapter 1 jer. Dengan x jumpa supervisornyer… dengan x de progress slps tu… dgn x proceed on Literature Review nye… ARGGGHHHH!!! KENAPA AKU NI MALAS SANGAT!!!
Sekarang dgn other assignments also piling up! With I’m involving in a college project that right now I feel regret doing so though when my conscious mind came, it said it would give me a good experience… DAMN!!!!!!!!!!
AT MY CURRENT STATE I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO SCREAM TO CURSE TO DO ALL THOSE MEAN STUFF!!!!!
ARGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I AM SCREAMING IN MY HEART NOW!!!!
THE ONLY THING THAT CONSOLING ME RIGHT NOW IS EVANESSENCE SONGS!!!!
I feel this some sort of rage in me… rage towards everything. Rage towards myself. Rage towards people around me, more rage actually towards myself…. I AM SO FUCKING ANGRYYYY!!!!!
I’M MAD TO MYSELF, MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!
DAMN!!!!
I WANT TO LIVE IN THE DREAMS LIKE IN THAT INCEPTION MOVIE!!!!!
PUT MYSELF TO SLEEP AND LIVE IN MY SUBCONCIOUS MIND THAT I CREATED. YEAH RATIONALLY IT’S SO FUCKING WRONG BUT RIGHT NOW I’M NOT IN MY RATIONAL MIND!!!!
At time like this… I was thinking of a time machine… is it really this hard being an adult.
Of course it is right? Nothing is easy in this life… no such thing at all… I’ve sighing a lot…
I hate having feelings like this… I hate it…. I hate it… I hate it… wonder what does it actually took for me to have a life that I actually enjoy… doing something I like? Even doing something that I like require a lot of thinks… am I becoming like this because I think a lot that I tend to torture myself? Damn! Lots of questions with less of answers… I’m like a living being that wearing a mask… having a double life… insecurity… self-inferiority…  
My dream……………………………………..
Dream that maybe I cant ever achieve at all………………………………………………………..
Yeah…..
Yeah……………….
Yeah……………………………….
At times like this.... even kpop cant help console this feeling of mine.... 


Sunday, March 25, 2012

March 23rd, 2012. The day I met with the 9(8) Goddesses, Girls' Generation

It has been awhile since I wrote something at this blog. even 2PM concert I didnt write any FA or anything well since after the concert I have to endure something with my family. However, this time it's different. it's Girls' Generation.


March 23rd, 2012, definitely one historical day for me since my angels finally came down to Malaysia. I'm so touched and having quite a slapping myself time lol XD
Finally, they acknowledge Malaysia and come down to this country. At first I want to got to the free one but then, since everymysone at twitter decided to go with at least the premium part, i also decided to buy the tix for premium part. well since i'm buying it with my friends, the process to get the ticket was sorta in mess. Luckily i left my room quite early. around 10am.

I took LRT and stop at KL Sentral first to get my poncho at Guardian. a preparation if it'll raining later. then, I took the LRT straight to KLCC. in the train, I also met on mysone that tegur me :D
he was like "Sone?" and i was like, "Yeah", showing a thumbs up XD
he was with another 2 girls. then we all arrived at KLCC. Upon arriving at KLCC i was just wandering around since the friend that I bought the tix with still didnt arrive in KL yet since she's from Sarawak. She ask me to take the tix from another friend of her and that friend also arrive quite late. I arrived around 11am something. I walk around and I met with Bobo, Slayn and Ila but they are all waiting at the Golden part. thus, I searched some friends at Premium part. I found the banners made by mysone forum. here the banners:





After that, i met with the people that I know like Hapih, Naz, and finally I got to meet with other mysones from twitter like kak outlaw, kak aegyodeer, citysone, and others.
I felt so happy to meet them. was hanging out with them quite sometime...



However, the chaos started when the clock turned around 3pm. the organizer started to chase us out from that area and everyone was like lost and didnt know where to go. when we're asking to them, where should we line up, each of the security giving different asnwers. everyone was so freaking frustrated. since we're standing under the hot sun, the security and guards attitude really was like adding fuel to the situation. everyone was like really pissed off. we were like wandering around searching places to queeing up but no. they just didnt give one valid answer. event management company totally sucks to the max! while wandering around, I met with Eza, the person who I have to collect the ticket from. then, i met with this one guy that I have to give him one ticket after long waited, then, I get to meet with IzumiFany or Umira Hassan. the girl that i buy the ticket from. finally she arrived in KL :D

After that, I met with mysone group and stick with them while waiting to get in. it was around 630pm already and yet the security still didnt us let in yet. OTL. only around 7pm, they let us in. However, at that time, I already lost with all any of mysone friends. I was all alone at that time. when I get to enter the Premium zone, I was trying to look for a better view of the stage but damn! SONEs are just too tall. I barely see the stage.


Basically these are my views ~_~

I'm totally not lying when I said SONEs are so damn tall lol XD I think for a girl height, I was quite tall but at that time, how I wish I can be more tall lol XD my last result was the screen of course.

Since I know already their tentative programme, almost all sones also know that SOSHI is one of the earliest performer of the night. we wait, and wait and wait... the MC was Jojo Struys. before this I know her and sorta thought that she was kinda cool girl but after what had happened before and knowing that the event management agency was her's, I just cant contain my annoyed feeling about her. not just that, her lame MCing time also was like somehow adding fuel to everyone hotness.
She wants people in front say Hey, and Ho and Gee... wtf???? ~_~ at first I can still follow but then, I was like, bazir energy and my voice jer... so I just stay quite when she mention things like that. then everytime she want people to make some noise, she will mention GG. at first okay, i fall for it. i scream after a few times when it sounds more like a troll, i kept quiet again =____=
the DJs also like that. keep using GG's name and yet they dont evenplay GG's song. they played SUJU-M song, 2NE1 song and WG's song but no GG's song. I was like what duh???? ~_____~
Through out the whole waiting time, I was so freaking annoyed lol XD

The show start with performance from ElectroColdxHot from last year Showdown winner. It just feel better cause some of the dancers dancing to kpop songs.

video

Around 9pm, finally....

the girls came out but no Yuri. I felt so sad... :( cause she got her Fashion King shooting.
but it's okay since the other 8 still here ^_^
start of the song is The Boys but so meh.... sound system sucks. Taeyeon, Seohyun, and some of the other girls mics was malfunction... again meh.... ~__________________~
but I just glad that the girls still give the very best performance and the fact that I finally can see them. I was like jumping around to see them lol XD
finally I get to catch a glimpse of them ^^ with their white outfit :D


youtube vids cr: buahmulut and joshuaongys

The feeling of seeing them alive definitely overwhelmed! :D
then, the continue the performance with Genie

yt vid cr: buahmulut

The most epic moment when the performing Genie is "MALAYSIA! PUT IT BACK ON!" ^________________________________________^


youtube vid cr: plzchodixxon


 
After so long finally Malaysia Put It Back On is echoed in Malaysia >_<
I cant contain my happiness :D
Then, the girls continue with their 1st talk. they introduce themselves and Sooyoung said "Terima Kasih Malaysia" and the perfect maknae Seo Juhyun introduce herself in Malay ;_______________;, "Selamat Petang Malaysia, Saya Seohyun" ;__________;

yt vid cr: MAStravel

they continue the next song with Hoot and Run Devil Run
I dont know about other zone but my zone was so freaking awesome with the fanchants \o/



yt vids cr: joshuaongys

Next they had some small talk and proceed with their last 2 songs, Mr Taxi and Gee.

The 2nd talk
yt vid cr: MiDvP

the fact that Sooyoung said they will come again with Tiffany and Tiffany promise to come again and perform as 9 make me so eggcited ^_^ the fact that they're saying they will come again.... KYYYAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's like dream come true not like this concert itself already like a dream come true.

Next they're performing Mr. Taxi.

yt vid cr: buahmulut

The last song was Gee and everyone was so eggcited and esctatic since it's the song that bring the girls on top. the fanchants was superb. definitely awesome!
yt vid cr: MiDvP

Right after GG conclude Gee, everysone there was walking out from the venue. lol it was like everyone came just for GG lol XD indeed we just want to watch GG and everyone just left. lol XD This is the vid of before and after GG performance >_<

yt vid cr: MiDvP

indeed everyone just came to watch SOSHI LMAO XD
I was also going back with my friends from my faculty, Michelle and Hazrul. luckily they came too thus I got friend to go back >_<

Another war  battle also was in LRT. once we entered LRT station, we just can walk forward and was like no turning back. the crowd was so full in LRT as everyone was just want to go home at the same time. the war battle was also during buying the LRT tix. it's so ~_~" definitely one tiring night for me. it was like sardine or tuna in a can. you cant really move yet you can only squeeze around. it was like sauna, with pool of humans. with your sweats and others sweats. indeed tiring.

This is people that just entering the station

and this is people that squeezing to buy the tix. squeezing okay, not queeing... =_="

Arrived at University Station, my friends and I are all hungry to the max. so we went to grab some supper before went back. we went to McD at Bangsar. after eat, we went back to colleges.
my feet are sore whole body tired and sore and all but the sweet of meeting SOSHI definitely overcome all the hardship that had happened in that one day. It's one bittersweet day for me, March 23rd, 2012. The fact that I can meet a lot of mysones that I only know from twitter already make me so happy. We meet togther because of SOSHI and thus to me this kind of hardship is nothing >_< people may see this and think that it's a crazy thing to do but to me it's all worth it. all of it. it's a good experience. a very good memory of my life also. ^^ I'll take it like that.

lol the "Finally You're Here" project was not that successful sadly but it's okay cause the girls still know ^^

Thanks MYSONEs for making this all so memorable to me and to all of us. we're indeed one great fandom ^^ finally they acknowledge our existence Fighting MYSONEs and do not give up for us to have our very own SOSHI solo concert here in Malaysia

and thanks Girls' Generation, 소녀시대 for finally coming to our HOT country ^^ thanks for making my weekend so blessed and happy. thank you so much. thanks again for finally answering our wish. thanks you ^^ seeing you guys so sweaty make me a bit sad but seeing you guys performing happily despite the hotness in this country make me more and more touched and happy seeing you guys :') thanks again and like you said you will come again with Yuri, I wait for your time when you will finally being here :D thanks SOSHI for making my life and mysones so happy last 23rd March 2012 ^^


it's indeed one unforgettable night for me, again, thank you SOSHI! Thank you so much :D

Oh yeah, this is the power of SOSHI in Malaysia :D

My fancam from that night. though it's not really a good quality but I took it for the sake of cherishing the moments and just to keep it as a memory. The fanchants was awesome too :D

120323 SNSD - Telll Me Your Wish, Girls' Generation 1st  performance in Malaysia
 
120323 SNSD 1st talk, Hoot, Run Devil Run cuts,  Girls' Generation 1st performance in Malaysia

120323 SNSD 2nd talk, Mr. Taxi, Gee cuts, Girls' Generation 1st performance in Malaysia

Please excuse my dolphin scream for Jessica. cant help it lol XD
I think I definitely have annoyed all people around me because of my scream for Jessica lol XD
well my answer to that, "LANTAK AKU LA" lol
indeed it's one gerat experience for me :D

pic credit: jennyi @ mysone, kavenyou, Kenny Hongwei, me @miraliyana
youtube vid credit: buahmulut, joshuaongys, MiDvP, me @amiliyana2

-end GIRLS' GENERATION IN MALAYSIA post-