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Monday, December 24, 2012

End of Semester 1 of 2012/2013 Session, Girls' Generation 2013 Comeback, New Year 2013

the time I was writing this, it is 3:22am.
I was thinking of updating this blog as maybe the next time I'll update it probably it's already in 2013. who knows? >.<
Actually I was waiting for SBS Kpop Super Concert to finish download as I downloaded the HD one hence = 3GB -____-;;
the waiting is quite long and I actually already so sleepy but I got to wait for this download to finish first.

Last Friday was the day I submitted my report for my final year project. the report may not be perfect, but I'm quite 뿌듯 that I actually finished the whole thing. It may not that thick like everyone else, but I think it have everything that needed(?) idk... guess i have to wait my result to know that... it was chaos that day... 21 November 2012... the day the Mayans predict as the end of the world... i survived and I actually survived and managed to submit this report despite the rain and the short time... thanks to the faculty staff that still there and not going home yet and still willing to accept my report hehehe :D

A commemorative pic of the report before it was submitted

After submitted the report, it kinda concluded the studies of my suppose last semester of my undergraduate bachelor degree. Now what left is the finals in January 2013. I have to work hard in earning some As to make up for my CGPA... idk, i hope i'll succeed ^^ pray for me >.<

Alright, KPOP latest news.... hey, it's 2013 in coming hence, it's time for Girls' Generation comeback ^^
Today, the girls just finished their recording for their comeback show in MBC. it'll be aired on January 1st 2013 for their comeback. 20 hours+ of recording... they must've been so exhausted but it's all for fans... I love their determination and professionalism. Indeed Girls' Generation :)
Along with this comeback, they also release a pre-release song and mv called Dancing Queen. it's actually a remake of Duffy's Mercy. the MV was actually being shot in 2008. it suppose to be their comeback song in 2008 instead of Gee. However since they have some issue on the copyright of the song, all of the promotion, mv, song of DQ is being put in the dungeon. Only now they release it to fans as a gift... hehehehe :D 
but I gotta say, if they were actually going to comeback with DQ in 2008 instead of Gee in 2009, I think they probably wont be as successful as now. DQ is good but Gee is just great. Gee is legend. Gee what make who's Girls' Generation is now. well, that's what i think tho. 

Anyway, enjoy 2008's Girls' Generation Dancing Queen ^^

Girls' Generation Dancing Queen

Here some of the teaser pictures of Girls' Generation I Got A Boy:
the main logo of I Got A Boy

I Got A Boy tattoo on Hyoyeon 


Kid Leader Taeng ^^ I like this teaser pic more than the other one :D

Jessica... no word to say more on her ^^

Purple hair Sunny

보석 보다 빛나는 파니 파니 티파니 ^^ 

Oh yeah funky Kim Hyoyeon :D 

KwonYul 멋져 ^^

색시한 Choi Sooyoung :D

아기 귀요미 Yoona ^^

Nothing can describe maknae other than HOT and SEXY. from now on, she's SeoHOT or SeoSEXY ^^

Bonus:  
I'm totally turn into Jessbian for Jessica ^^ Jessica+ bra >.<

Group photos:  



I love the concept of these teasers... sexy and funky ^^ more teaser pics at http://girlsgeneration.smtown.com/Intro
Simply put, cant wait for January 2013 ^^

today is 24th December 2012 and tomorrow is already Christmas... so means that 2012 will soon come to end and January 2013 will welcome us soon. May 2013 will be a better year for all of us than 2012. 
Fighting everyone!
to everyone that will celebrate Christmas, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone :D


Saturday, December 8, 2012

FYP and my Supervisor

yesterday I was practically didnt have sleep at all.
I drank like 4 packet of the 3-in-1 coffee and 1 can of the Nescafe Mocha.
I'm not really a coffee lover... I just took it because I need the caffeine to stay awake throughout the night to actually do something in my project to show her, my supervisor.
Work out all night to finish it and the 1st part still at 40%. the 2nd part got a bunch of errors here and there with the problem at the web hosting part... I was all stressed out about it.

Then the clock is ticking to 1pm at noon on that Friday.
With whatever I have now, I'm meeting her.
my heart was so nervous and with the effect of the caffeine, I felt like my hands and legs are shaking...
walking to meet her at her room. there's another friend of mine as well. she's meeting her as well to ask about the post-evaluation on her system.
I'm not even reach that part yet and the VIVA is totally confirm for this upcoming Friday and I'm suppose to be the 3rd person.

First we were discussed about my friend part first. I took the note as well. what should I've done for the post-evaluation part. For the slides as well. She keep remind on getting my confidence during the presentation day later. She knew me too well. last time, I was so nervous that my mouth barely talk about what I should present. This time, I didnt know yet who is my panels. yes, the nervousness at it peak. well it supposed to.

When it's time to show her my project, I just show everything to her. It's not like she really like it but she's not really criticized it in a bad way. she still give a lot of great advice for me to fix it and make it more interesting. The fact that she's so kind. Her kindness really touched me a lot. I have like only 5-6 days more to actually finished everything and she's not mad or anything but she was like just hope i can finish it. "Just finish the whole thing and it can work functionally. Later if you want to make it more pretty and interesting, you can fix it". This words seriously blow me some good spirit in me. the day I dont have any sleep, try to finish this, I'm at the verge of giving up, she just ask me to finish it and she actually like the whole concept of it. I felt so touched with her kindness. I was thought that if she actually mad with me since my work is not really good and I think most my friends that have her as their supervisor had really done a great job is so far better compared to what I have done. I always have a soft part in me that will always remember people that touched me throughout my life. it makes me want to be like them. Just like my school teacher from my secondary school. when I was in standard 2. her name is Puan Puziah. It has always been my dream to touched people's heart with my work or my words or with whatever I'll do in future. I even promise, if I ever will be someone that teach people in future, I want to be the understanding one. the one that cant assume that everyone are the same and treat all of them the same. instead give them some hope. cause blowing some hope in a person really help them a lot in spiritual way. it give the confidence for them to do better. Thanks Pn. Hannyzura. InsyaAllah I'll remember you forever. InsyaAllah :) and I'll try my best on this project InsyaAllah.


Thursday, December 6, 2012

FYP & VIVA

First post in the December :)
It's the 6th on December now. We're reaching to 2013 before we even realize it.
Yes, the stress time have come now as the VIVA was said to be next week yet my project was still in 20% or maybe less.
IDK why but I kinda lost... lost in time... lost in everything. I didnt have the initiative to start it and even when I already started it, I lost the motivation to continue it.
tomorrow I have to show my supervisor what i have done these past one week and my mindset is to just 버려 my sleep time and just continue making it tonight and yet I'm still here writing this blog post.... -___-
see...
the problem with me is instead of trying to overcome the problem, I'm running away from it.
worried about it yet I didnt do anything about it.
That's totally my problem.....
this suppose to be my last semester but my attitude has gotten worsen.
I dont know what to do with my life anymore...
and the fact that i pay attention to my kpop life more than anything what make it worst.
I know that I need to get away from this kind of life but i dont know how..
this semester is worse than last semester.
tho last semester I was busy with things here and there, I still have purpose, goal or something.
However, now...
I just lost. Lost in my own life... lost...
Lost....
Lost....
Lost....
What should i do?
even when praying to Him, I felt like I dont deserve to ask for anything cause I've been so far from Him.
yes, it's better to ask than not do anything...
Things that I really really want to ask Him now is to make my heart at ease tho i dont actually deserve it.
to wasted a lot of time, it is my fault, to postpone my works, it is my fault.
that's why i have to deal with the consequences.
I just hope He can calm my heart a bit.
I may not be a genius. I may be a lazy, a non-determination person, a not hardworking person, but I'm not a quitter.
I cant just give up... with this small hope in me of not gonna quitting, I'm going to continue this.
I will finish this FYP project by hook or crook. it may not be an A but it may be a PASS or a B or a B- or busuk2 pun C+ >.<
I need to step up my game a bit.
I'm going to start now :D
Wish me luck (if anyone is reading this blog anyway... lol XD)

- oh yeah, I was actually want to update a post about my family vacation last 2 weeks. I guess I'll just update it later ^^V -