Because I'm Alive... 살아있으니까...

the time I was writing this, it is 3:22am. I was thinking of updating this blog as maybe the next time I'll update it probably it's already in 2013. who knows? >.< Actually I was waiting for SBS Kpop Super Concert to finish download as I downloaded the HD one hence = 3GB -____-;; the waiting is quite long and I actually already so sleepy but I got to wait for this download to finish first. Last Friday was the day I submitted my report for my final year project. the report may not be perfect, but I'm quite 뿌듯 that I actually finished the whole thing. It may not that thick like everyone else, but I think it have everything that needed(?) idk... guess i have to wait my result to know that... it was chaos that day... 21 November 2012... the day the Mayans predict as the end of the world... i survived and I actually survived and managed to submit this report despite the rain and the short time... thanks to the faculty staff that still there and not going home yet and ...

yesterday I was practically didnt have sleep at all. I drank like 4 packet of the 3-in-1 coffee and 1 can of the Nescafe Mocha. I'm not really a coffee lover... I just took it because I need the caffeine to stay awake throughout the night to actually do something in my project to show her, my supervisor. Work out all night to finish it and the 1st part still at 40%. the 2nd part got a bunch of errors here and there with the problem at the web hosting part... I was all stressed out about it. Then the clock is ticking to 1pm at noon on that Friday. With whatever I have now, I'm meeting her. my heart was so nervous and with the effect of the caffeine, I felt like my hands and legs are shaking... walking to meet her at her room. there's another friend of mine as well. she's meeting her as well to ask about the post-evaluation on her system. I'm not even reach that part yet and the VIVA is totally confirm for this upcoming Friday and I'm suppose to be the 3r...

First post in the December :) It's the 6th on December now. We're reaching to 2013 before we even realize it. Yes, the stress time have come now as the VIVA was said to be next week yet my project was still in 20% or maybe less. IDK why but I kinda lost... lost in time... lost in everything. I didnt have the initiative to start it and even when I already started it, I lost the motivation to continue it. tomorrow I have to show my supervisor what i have done these past one week and my mindset is to just 버려 my sleep time and just continue making it tonight and yet I'm still here writing this blog post.... -___- see... the problem with me is instead of trying to overcome the problem, I'm running away from it. worried about it yet I didnt do anything about it. That's totally my problem..... this suppose to be my last semester but my attitude has gotten worsen. I dont know what to do with my life anymore... and the fact that i pay attention to my kpop life mor...