Because I'm Alive... 살아있으니까...

the time I was writing this, it is 3:22am. I was thinking of updating this blog as maybe the next time I'll update it probably it's already in 2013. who knows? >.< Actually I was waiting for SBS Kpop Super Concert to finish download as I downloaded the HD one hence = 3GB -____-;; the waiting is quite long and I actually already so sleepy but I got to wait for this download to finish first. Last Friday was the day I submitted my report for my final year project. the report may not be perfect, but I'm quite 뿌듯 that I actually finished the whole thing. It may not that thick like everyone else, but I think it have everything that needed(?) idk... guess i have to wait my result to know that... it was chaos that day... 21 November 2012... the day the Mayans predict as the end of the world... i survived and I actually survived and managed to submit this report despite the rain and the short time... thanks to the faculty staff that still there and not going home yet and ...

yesterday I was practically didnt have sleep at all. I drank like 4 packet of the 3-in-1 coffee and 1 can of the Nescafe Mocha. I'm not really a coffee lover... I just took it because I need the caffeine to stay awake throughout the night to actually do something in my project to show her, my supervisor. Work out all night to finish it and the 1st part still at 40%. the 2nd part got a bunch of errors here and there with the problem at the web hosting part... I was all stressed out about it. Then the clock is ticking to 1pm at noon on that Friday. With whatever I have now, I'm meeting her. my heart was so nervous and with the effect of the caffeine, I felt like my hands and legs are shaking... walking to meet her at her room. there's another friend of mine as well. she's meeting her as well to ask about the post-evaluation on her system. I'm not even reach that part yet and the VIVA is totally confirm for this upcoming Friday and I'm suppose to be the 3r...

First post in the December :) It's the 6th on December now. We're reaching to 2013 before we even realize it. Yes, the stress time have come now as the VIVA was said to be next week yet my project was still in 20% or maybe less. IDK why but I kinda lost... lost in time... lost in everything. I didnt have the initiative to start it and even when I already started it, I lost the motivation to continue it. tomorrow I have to show my supervisor what i have done these past one week and my mindset is to just 버려 my sleep time and just continue making it tonight and yet I'm still here writing this blog post.... -___- see... the problem with me is instead of trying to overcome the problem, I'm running away from it. worried about it yet I didnt do anything about it. That's totally my problem..... this suppose to be my last semester but my attitude has gotten worsen. I dont know what to do with my life anymore... and the fact that i pay attention to my kpop life mor...

It has been awhile I'm writing here... well, I was feeling like writing the "it" thing that happened in kpop world these days... well, it's the IU-Eunhyuk scandal. I was actually found about the rumor first was like in early of November... well, since people was posting the pictures of assumely they having the couple items... searching about it at naver and all cause their name actually on the trended list. my results was just a mere rumors since the only they have is the couple items that may be true or may be not. So I was just let it past.... until on the 10th November, breaking news of IU “accidentally” posting one 불편한 selca of her and Eunhyuk and deleted it right away after that… The selca was seen as really disturbing as Eunhyuk’s face have the “after-sex” face… Since the one that post it was IU, her image was go down the drain… then LOEN came up with this most lame excuse ever. Seriously… Eunhyuk was visiting her in Summer because s...

It's my time for spazzing over this show. Hahahahahaha XD  I just finished watching the 2nd season of this show. Just like season 1, this season also so freaking awesome. "A" is becoming more bitchy in this season that at some part, I really want to strangle her. Seriously.  It actually has been awhile since I didnt watch any American shows. kinda miss it actually. one day, was somehow randomly encounter the torrent for the 2nd season of this show. straightly downloaded it and it's worth it.  It's spectacular and the Season 3 already begun too. thinking of downloading it too but I was kinda waited for all season to finish first cause it'll be much more fun if I watch in the straight marathon style >.< Season 2, finally they unveiled who "A" is. I was actually kinda spoiled already cause I was accidentally searching for PLL and open the Season 3 wiki. thus, it already told who's "A". then again, looks like "A...

which one to start first? hmmm.... let's just start dgn concentration... Concentration, 집중 i dont know why but this thing is so hard for me lately. as usual, having a internet obsession... cant seem to put my mind at the right place to do work instead. OTL my fyp still berada di awang-awangan. this is the 2nd FYP. it's already 3rd week, and i didnt meet with my supervisor yet. dont want to make the same mistake like last semester yet i didnt have the high determination to make it... OTL i know the solution is within me. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ wish me luck in finding my priority and the determination in me.... InsyaAllah... :( Julia This is about kru produksi drama Julia yg sedang ditayangkan kat TV3 slot Akasia, setiap ptg tu. okay, speak malay jap lol XD aku x tau pun sebenarnya ada drama ni. skali tgk la Kak JC duk tweet2 kat my t-line using the hashtag #Julia. was just okay until tetiba ada org sentap and mensi terus kak JC. rupa2nya org tu turn out to be one of kru produk...

Since most of my biases are making a comeback this month. TVXQ, SPICA, RANIA Awesome! spazz here and there but since college internet line not so good, thus, spazzing was just so-so. but still cool. SPICA (I'll Be There) At first, after listening and watched their MV, not really feeling anything cause their concept this time kinda like 90s style... but after listening to their live comeback at Music Bank, totally fall for it. AWESOME! With their flawless vocals, seriously awesome! SPICA's I'll Be There MV RANIA (Style) This time around RaNia collaborating with YG to produce their comeback song. Apparently since YG owe a lot with RaNia's CEO, thus he help them to repay him. Yang Hyun Suk revealed to be the producer behind RaNia’s comeback The song was cool but indeed it sound a bit like what 2NE1 will sing but at least for me it's better than Pop Pop Pop. I like this one better. It kinda sad that they're only coming back as 5 member sans J...

Yesterday I went to Berjaya Times Square for Jung Ilwoo's fanmeet in Malaysia brought by Holika Holika. Was just an impromptu invite from my friend... and i was like it has been awhile since I went to Berjaya Times Square anyway so why not? then I was just, "JOM" >_< Hence, I met up with my friend at Time Square. the event start at 2PM. at first we was just wandering around at the registering table then we realize, only those that have the sticker can enter, thus giving up, we decide to just watch him from the 1st level instead... we went for lunch first. was having a Japanese Terayaki Beef Bento for the lunch XD yummy ^^ then we just stand at the G level to see the stage at LG level. it's okay tho it's far as long as I can see him. Almost 2pm, the event start with a Gangnam Style dance performance. the song kinda overrated to me actually but since it is korean related, it's fine... we all still jamming to it tho :D then, the guy entered after th...

Woke up late today and was wondering nak buat FYP ke tidak... okay, bukak laptop, apa sumer... seperti biasa, kalau dah bukak laptop, it's not on project or any of kerja sekolah or any study things that i should've been done... LOLXD Stuck at the internet and all kpop stuff until now.... =___= this is me... M disease has spread to the whole body... dont know why... /ledeepsigh I know I should have start my work now... but seriously dont know where to start first... huhuhuhu Semoga aku diberi penerang hati untuk kurangkan sifat malas ini dan lebihkan fokus pada kerja aku... 집중... that's what i need... huhu wish me luck >_<

Was just feeling like writing something since I'm all alone at the lab right now New semester have begun Should have been my last semester actually However, frankly speaking, I'm not sure if it's my last :) my CGPA still not at 3 yet  /sigh I know I know, it's my fault anyway since i always like play around and not pay a full attention in my study dont know if this ever happen to anyone but right after I entered 2nd year, I kinda was just like "let's just finish this"  I felt that I've lost my passion except passion for korea things (ie, drama, kpop, etc -_-)  this bad habits really bad idk why sometimes it make me wonder, is this what i really want? was it really ever been thing that i want in the first place? idk like before, let's just finish this tho i'm thinking of let's just finishing this, i still want to at least finishing it in a good way This last semester, i really hope that i can really achieve what i want...

Pejam celik, pejam celik kini dah seminggu lebih Syawal 2012 tiba.  persiapan raya hari tu penat jugakla, tapi byk jgk imbuhan sbb tolong ibu and atuk opah tahun ni ^^ Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Aku ni mmg jarang update blog ni... OTL biasala penyakit M, equal to MALAS XD setiap kali datang feel nk menulis, sekelip mata jugakla feeling to get away mcm tu je sbb M kekekeke XD anyway, sebenarnya berbanding nk citer pasal Raya, aku nk citer pasal novel baru aku beli haritu. duk tunggu ibu dgn adik2 aku beli barang kat Jusco Bukit Raja hari tu, aku dgn my another sister, tunggu jer kat luar... belek2 la novel and majalah2 kat kedai buku dpn jusco tu. tetiba, mata aku tertancap kat satu buku novel ni, tajuk dia: "CINTA KAU DAN AKU" karya Siti Rosmizah. Sinopsis... "Apa, jadi driver? Hei Risya, dah tak ada jawatan lain ke kat tempat kerja Milah tu sampaikan jawatan driver pun kau terima? Dah-dah, balik kampung aje. Tolong m...

Since these days the dateline of assignments is coming close… Talking about assignments, it wont be finished right away. Lagi2 org mcm aku yg pemalas GILORRR!!!! Dgn FYP yg stuck dekat Chapter 1 jer. Dengan x jumpa supervisornyer… dengan x de progress slps tu… dgn x proceed on Literature Review nye… ARGGGHHHH!!! KENAPA AKU NI MALAS SANGAT!!! Sekarang dgn other assignments also piling up! With I’m involving in a college project that right now I feel regret doing so though when my conscious mind came, it said it would give me a good experience… DAMN!!!!!!!!!! AT MY CURRENT STATE I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO SCREAM TO CURSE TO DO ALL THOSE MEAN STUFF!!!!! ARGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I AM SCREAMING IN MY HEART NOW!!!! THE ONLY THING THAT CONSOLING ME RIGHT NOW IS EVANESSENCE SONGS!!!! I feel this some sort of rage in me… rage towards everything. Rage towards myself. Rage towards people around me, more rage actually towards myself…. I AM SO FUCKING ANGRYYYY!!!!! I’M MAD TO MYSELF, M...

It has been awhile since I wrote something at this blog. even 2PM concert I didnt write any FA or anything well since after the concert I have to endure something with my family. However, this time it's different. it's Girls' Generation. March 23rd, 2012, definitely one historical day for me since my angels finally came down to Malaysia. I'm so touched and having quite a slapping myself time lol XD Finally, they acknowledge Malaysia and come down to this country. At first I want to got to the free one but then, since everymysone at twitter decided to go with at least the premium part, i also decided to buy the tix for premium part. well since i'm buying it with my friends, the process to get the ticket was sorta in mess. Luckily i left my room quite early. around 10am. I took LRT and stop at KL Sentral first to get my poncho at Guardian. a preparation if it'll raining later. then, I took the LRT straight to KLCC. in the train, I also met on mysone that teg...