Because I'm Alive... 살아있으니까...

Today.... really feel exhausted after following my mum to here and there... After 30 days quitting from my job, today it totally draining out my energy... However, somehow... I think i just shouldnt or dont have the right to actually complained or talked about it because if I'm exhausted then my mum who's the one that driving and half plus of my age must be much much much more exhausted... So cant really say anything... I just have to endure it. My sister also require something from me.... Which make me feel so guilty if i didnt do it... So... my last resort is... 꼭 참아... 넌 할수있어... 이젠 끝까지야돼...

Today I finished a manhwa that I started to read last 2 days. It was so good that it just made me to finished it all. this is my first time reading this manhwa (a korean manga). my first time that i actually finished all of the chapters. the plot just strike me to finish it all. Hyunbin lead a really sad life. it's really good that despite of all that she's actually loved by lots of people and despite there are still lots of people that taking advantage of her as well... tho personally the ending looks quite rush so... it's definitely not boring hehe The messages that it being potray was quite god as well The message of LIFE. People that take life for granted and people the took life so preciously. It's sad and it just engraved in me. It have it's happiness also... The life of Seo Hyunbin, Lee Yoonha, Chun Birak, Ja Chiho, Tae Gahyun and even Yun Yaeha. These characters in this manhwa really teach me a lot. My first finished manhwa, Love In The Mask, 가면속...

New beginning... I'm going to leave the company that I'm currently working... This 30th September going to be my last... I decided to help my mum with her business... Tho sometimes I do feels the uncertainty... but somehow deep inside me, I want to walk that route... that uncertainty route just to see what it can offer me... that road or route may probably be full of thorns, glasses or things that will hurt and harm me... However, my feeling is so strong asking me to still walk there... InshaAllah this route may show me other great things that this world can offer me... only He knows anyway, so I belief in that... He knows best... Allah will lead the way... InshaAllah... I want to learn other things... InshaAllah, He'll let me learn... May He make me strong during this learning process... InshaAllah :)

It has been awhile I didnt wrote a review on a movie. last time was my March post. these days I finally can catching up some movies and it really fun :) most of the time, I'm just too lazy to write one but I guess not this time. I'm so eager to write on Cloud Atlas since it still quite fresh in my mind for like 10 minutes now XD I'm a big sci-fi movies fan. At first I was thinking to watch Everywhen (2013) movie but then I just made a decision to watch Cloud Atlas instead cause I've downloaded this movie for quite sometime but still not watching it yet. Okay some synopsis on this movie from imdb,

Asalamualaikum... Dah lama x update sini... perasaan nak update mmg ada tp tu la... malas pun ada, semua ada la... ada jer bende yg menghalang nye >.< Sekarang tgh ada feel nak menulis, tu la yg menulis ni... first skali nak citer. I already broke the news to my supervisor... like yep, this is definitely my decision that I'm going to take. InshaAllah after solat istikharah yg telah dibuat, perasaan lebih berat kepada teruskan.. and somehow, ianya lebih jelas dari sebelum ini... Alhamdulillah... dan harapnya Allah permudahkan segala - galanya... Walaupun tadi ayah ada juga cakap yg he prefer for me to kerja dgn orang lg... because I already have degree... bila bincang balik dgn my sister td, dia pun cakap, "apa-apa pun, ni hidup kau... kau yg kena buat keputusan yg mana kau rasa terbaik untuk kau. ayah punye perspektif, sbb kau dah hbs duit belajar semua, so he prefer you to get a monthly wages... stable... tp kalau kau ada bende lain nak buat, ko kene prove kat ...

So I just finished watching this movie just now. since it's still fresh, felt like want to write something about it now. this is the synopsis of the movie from wikipedia

I really have a problem... 잘 모르는 문제.... 그런가? what i want in me? how to make what i want be real? lack of passion on everything except entertainment things... i think that's me.. lack of concentration... i really think that i'm the one that my own life hard... working with someone, the guidelines are theirs and never yours... even tho you do have what you want to do, 네 맘데로 못해... 항상 다른 사람 길은 따라해야지 만약에 this is what you want to do, 그냥 해... 근데 그거는 못해... 왜? 왜 못해? that's cause you decide you cant right? 사실 the more people say cant, the more you want it right? 그런 인간이야... 인간 인생이 왜 이렇게 복잡해? 나만 인생인까? 항상 싫어 싫어하다가.. 아직도 아무것도 been done... you have like practically 3 days before 1 year with them... day by day... it feels like anytime... it can be your time to be 잘랐어... 항상 불한했어... is my time will go? no matter how good you are, how talented you are... you're just a worker... 넌 boss 아니잖아...

Since we still in March and I'm in a mood of writing so not going to postponed again, I decided to write tonight. Got a few of Review posts that I planned to write actually.  so going to start with this post first.  I'll be writing this in Malay (a bit rojak la hehe :D )  instead since it's a bout Malay movies :)  -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It's 4:56 am right now. Cant sleep. Still feeling the concert hype ;D I want to write this down since it still practically fresh in my mind right now.

So today is 28th February 2014 Alhamdulillah, I've been let by Him to live until this end of February :) well, this post gonna be another rant about myself on things that revolve around me. work... life... thoughts... As I'm writing this post, I'm still listening to Hunger Games OST. well, still in Hunger Games withdrawal syndrome :P I opened my email just now. work email. I used to tell myself before. If ever I'll working later, I should separate my work and private life. Once I'm at home, you shouldn't touch your work stuff. well, reality strike me. you have to bother it no matter what. so I opened my work email. yeah, a BUG in omega/production. something that I already tested and already passed it. since I'm the tester who passed it, so the responsibility is/was on me. It just shown I'm not doing a good job of it. LOW PERFORMANCE level. yep. it's haunting me back. when I think I'm strong enough, then, it's haunting ...

So I bought The Hunger Games Trilogy book set and it arrived at my house on 5th February 2014. Then my book reading journey of this trilogy begins and last night or was it today, 22nd of February 2014, I finished all three books.  So it took me all 17 days to finish all 3 books. well since most of the time I read this book is when during my way to work and got back from work, in the train and bus.  These books has accompany me for all these 17 days.

Last Saturday, I was wake up quite early lol usually weekends it's hard for me to wake up early :P well, I woke up early cause I had an early sleep the night before. Do my 1-week laundry :P then, reading my Hunger Games book the 1st book. since I just bought the books :) was planning to go karaoke actually. with my mum went to Klang with my grandpa here and there, my plan was postponing until 2pm. After Zohor. After my mum got back from Klang, me and my 2 younger sisters are ready to go already. we went to Plaza Alam Sentral's K-Bintang Karaoke place. before that, we went to buy the cloth for making our this year Baju Raya. Buy some cloths at Nagoya. cause us about 100++ it's okay... it's for Raya anyway. it was still on sales too.. my mum bought hers, my 2 younger sisters and I paid for my another sisters. the cloths are quite pretty too :) Then, after that we went to the karaoke place. I paid for 1 and half hours. I belted 6 Ziana Zain songs to lepa...

This was draft in January 2014 actually. Was planned to write this in January as welcoming the 2014 but then I kept postponing it... haha... that just me... keep postponing things. a bad habit that I really need to fix it to be a better person. As I'm writing this, it's already 4th of February now. Time flies so fast. I barely hang onto something as in I felt that I didnt do much during the time that has fly by. During the new year, I let out my feelings to my supervisor... on how I really think that the job I'm doing now is really not for me... after I have a heart to heart to her and be all honest to her, I kinda have this huge burden lift up from me. Felt so relieved in some sorta way... During that time, I keep pray and I read a lot of things on improving myself as a muslim first. I think that's the most important thing I have to do now. Luckily, during the time I try to find myself, the novel that I read, Ya Maulana, has helped me a lot during that ti...