Because I'm Alive... 살아있으니까...

So today is 28th February 2014 Alhamdulillah, I've been let by Him to live until this end of February :) well, this post gonna be another rant about myself on things that revolve around me. work... life... thoughts... As I'm writing this post, I'm still listening to Hunger Games OST. well, still in Hunger Games withdrawal syndrome :P I opened my email just now. work email. I used to tell myself before. If ever I'll working later, I should separate my work and private life. Once I'm at home, you shouldn't touch your work stuff. well, reality strike me. you have to bother it no matter what. so I opened my work email. yeah, a BUG in omega/production. something that I already tested and already passed it. since I'm the tester who passed it, so the responsibility is/was on me. It just shown I'm not doing a good job of it. LOW PERFORMANCE level. yep. it's haunting me back. when I think I'm strong enough, then, it's haunting ...

So I bought The Hunger Games Trilogy book set and it arrived at my house on 5th February 2014. Then my book reading journey of this trilogy begins and last night or was it today, 22nd of February 2014, I finished all three books.  So it took me all 17 days to finish all 3 books. well since most of the time I read this book is when during my way to work and got back from work, in the train and bus.  These books has accompany me for all these 17 days.

Last Saturday, I was wake up quite early lol usually weekends it's hard for me to wake up early :P well, I woke up early cause I had an early sleep the night before. Do my 1-week laundry :P then, reading my Hunger Games book the 1st book. since I just bought the books :) was planning to go karaoke actually. with my mum went to Klang with my grandpa here and there, my plan was postponing until 2pm. After Zohor. After my mum got back from Klang, me and my 2 younger sisters are ready to go already. we went to Plaza Alam Sentral's K-Bintang Karaoke place. before that, we went to buy the cloth for making our this year Baju Raya. Buy some cloths at Nagoya. cause us about 100++ it's okay... it's for Raya anyway. it was still on sales too.. my mum bought hers, my 2 younger sisters and I paid for my another sisters. the cloths are quite pretty too :) Then, after that we went to the karaoke place. I paid for 1 and half hours. I belted 6 Ziana Zain songs to lepa...

This was draft in January 2014 actually. Was planned to write this in January as welcoming the 2014 but then I kept postponing it... haha... that just me... keep postponing things. a bad habit that I really need to fix it to be a better person. As I'm writing this, it's already 4th of February now. Time flies so fast. I barely hang onto something as in I felt that I didnt do much during the time that has fly by. During the new year, I let out my feelings to my supervisor... on how I really think that the job I'm doing now is really not for me... after I have a heart to heart to her and be all honest to her, I kinda have this huge burden lift up from me. Felt so relieved in some sorta way... During that time, I keep pray and I read a lot of things on improving myself as a muslim first. I think that's the most important thing I have to do now. Luckily, during the time I try to find myself, the novel that I read, Ya Maulana, has helped me a lot during that ti...

Today took an MC because I had a migrain. Yesterday was really painful with the train was delayed and so many people. Had a quite sleep time. Today also IU released her new repackaged album with 2 new songs. One is See You on Friday and another one is Crayon. She composed and wrote herself the See You on Friday song. Indeed IU. When I listened to the chorus, I was thinking hmmm... Where did I used to listened to this song? Hmm... Was it from the teaser? But there were no any teaser tho. Then, suddenly remembered that it was actually from the song that she leaked at Aion Live Concert lol XD The 1분  1초 song XD http://m.bgmstore.net/view/pqLPt Finally LOEN released the song officially. :) I'm so happy. I heard that the song was recorded back in February but only now it was released. It's ok. As long as it was released now. The MV was quite a bittersweet storyline but IU and the model is so sweet. The kiss scene looks so cute and sweet too. Their scene is ju...

이 못난 사람이... 보여줄게... InsyaAllah...

I actually encounter who she is from a friend of mine that ask how she was doing for Reply 1994 since I watched the drama. At first, I didnt really know who she is. I did some Wiki-ing and Naver-ing about her. Only then, I know who she is. Her real name is Im So Eun. D.O.B: 7th October 1996. a year older than my 16th years old sister (damn... I feel old >.< ) Debuted on August, 2013. one of the reason I attracted to her was when I saw her in this one blog in naver. She was MC-ing a GomTV show... kinda remind me of IU's early rookie days when she was MC-ing for GomTV show also. I searched for her debut song. not bad.... It's about high school sound to it... well since she's young and still in her teens, this concept suit her well.... I found few of her covering songs...  She really has that good voice.... but... maybe she's still young she still lack in the emotion part....  Maybe in future she'll be improve much better. Figh...

It's the first post in November. Hello November :) it has been awhile. this time around, I wont write things that are depressing or whatsoever. Last Sunday, I decided to watch the recommended kdrama that my sis keep nagging to me to watch. She said that this drama really good. I was keep postponing to watch it and until last Sunday that I decided to watch it. It took me 2 and half days to finished it lol XD It has been awhile I didnt do things like this after I started working. Barely have time for other things lol then I was just like 'Whatever' to whole work things and do my marathon on this drama no matter what hahahaha XD A bit of synopsis from wiki-drama: A thriller courtroom drama with fantasy and romantic comedy elements. It will depict the story of Jang Hye Sung ( Lee Bo Young ), a bold, sassy, thick-faced, comical, and materialistic public defender who becomes a lawyer after overcoming poverty and painful memories from her childhood, comes to re...

오늘 진짜 내 싫은 날인가봐... 너무 싫어... 너무 미워... 너무 스트레스트... 내 눈물이... 게속.... 슬퍼... 아이유의 싫은 날 노래가, 오늘 내 노래다...  내 인생은 너무 가식... 내 삶은 인생은 내꺼가 아닌것같아... 부모님인가... 할머니인가... 할아버지인가... 동생들인가...   느낌이 내꺼 아님...  난 나무 우울것같아...  님이... 대단한 사람이 알아...  완벽 주의자니까...  말이가... 제가 너무 부담것같아..  제 마음이 안좋아... 근데 이 입이, "좋아" "이해한다"  항상 웃어... 가식한 어색한 웃어...  제가 용기가 없다... 자신감도 너무 약해...  제가 너무 약해인가봐... 인생이 왜 이렇게 부담스럽게???  왜? 왜? 왜?  쉬운 인생은 없다... 그것도 내가 알아...  자유럽게 살고싶다... to express all of this to someone, 내 성격이가... 어렵다...  재가 울어하면 혼자다...  울어 모습이 is not for others...  Ya Allah... tenangkanlah hati ini... Kau hilangkanlah kegelisahan ini...  Kau gantikanlah dengan perasaan bahagia...  it's sad that everytime I want to update this blog, it is always on bad things...  haishh...  My condition really 위험... i know that...  but wri...

yes it's already June 2013. it almost 3 month that i have start my work as a Junior QA Engineer in a local IT company. at the first month, it's pretty hard for me to take on everything. i felt so stress that i actually cried almost every morning. thinking should i just quit. why do i have to continue my work here? I always pray. made Solat Istiqharah too asked Allah to help me in making decision. Always discuss the same thing with my mum. everytime I prayed to Him, somehow the answer will always to just stay. somehow my heart also open up to it. I was actually in conflict whether i should work or just help my mum with her rising business. in the end, i just made my decision to just stay with this work and help my mum as my part time. Every person in this world usually have their own reason why they're working. Some people because they wants to earn money for their family. However, for me, right now, my main reason is just want to learn. I want to learn this kn...