Because I'm Alive... 살아있으니까...

This post was supposed to be published in March as it was the month of my 33rd birthday and it's the month we welcoming Ramadan. My life has not change much from my previous post but I do received some freelancing work. It's kinda good. I felt positive about it.  33rd Birthday Getting older kinda make me look back in my 30s a lot. However, my feeling during celebrating my birthday was good.  I felt happy with what I have now. Surrounded with my family. I still received gifts from my family on my birthday. It's great. I thought I'll just say this for the sake of saying but deep down, I felt more content and I like it.  I shared my birthday celebration on my Instagram.  View this post on Instagram A post shared by miraliyana (@miraliyana)  Gifts that I received. View this post on Instagram A post shared by miraliyana (@miraliyana) Despite turning 33 this year, I felt positive in what my life will turn out. When I think a ...

via GIPHY Just right after my first post of 2022, it's my first post of 2023. This means how rare I am updating my blog here. I try to write more this 2023.  My concern is practically the same as before. As my life is still the same. Not much changes. I still got some freelance job after last post, but not much.  I have applied for some permanent job from time to time. However, I always end up with the same concerns. Looking back at my resume, I feels like I don't know anything. Like my working experience all these years are like worthless. I don't know. I refrain to get deep into it because I don't want to relapse but I can't help feel that way.  I studied in Information Technology. Of course, I didn't graduate with flying colours and if you read my past posts in this blog like in the year of 2011 - 2012 something, you'll know the reason. XD I had a 1 year plus experience in Manual Testing. Even that, I feels like I've zero experience in manual testing...

Recent Whereabout I have been jobless since October 2021. Specifically 31 October 2021 was my last day.  I decided to quit due to my burnout during the pandemic and things happen with my family.  My grandmother was having a health issue that needed a full concentration of all of our family members.  Kinda affected my mental health as well.  The job. I used to like the job and didn’t have any hatred towards it.  However, pandemic happened. I felt so overwhelmed that beyond my capacity.  Hence, I decided to quit.  It’s almost a year now.  From time to time I still search for any freelancing work as a translator/subtitler.  I like working on this field.  But yeah, after like one gig I got and now still none.  I knew that this field won’t be easy and I’m aware of it but I really want to try it.  To be quite honest, I do feel anxious. Anxious about the unknown future.  What should I do for living? What should I do next?  I...

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Hidden Tears When the tears came out It was wiped right away Afraid for it to be seen You learn the art of hiding it You learn mask it with a small smile So others won't see it So others won't know what state you're currently in Is this, right? I don't know Will this change? I don't know either Since the tears won't stop You just have to wipe it fast enough Jonghyun's Elevator, Let Me Out, End of Day IU's Scary Fairy Tale The Goo Goo Dolls' Iris  Become the comfort songs "Nothing Last Forever, Nothing Really Matter" "Yeah, you bleed just to know, you're alive" "날 위해선 맞나 아님 쫓기고 있나" "힘들어하는 날 제발 먼저 눈치채줘"

Hello, It has been awhile I didn't update anything on this blog. I realised that my last post here was from 3 years ago. Another post of drama spazzing. 3 years... It's not like I have any follower for this blog but somehow this year, I try to make myself write and read more. Kinda new goals I try to keep doing it throughout the year. It's now 2019. If I keep real track from the first post I made on this blog, it has been almost 11 years this blog has exist. So many thing has happened to the country, to myself for these past 11 years. When I read back my earliest post, I found it so cringe, so naive, so innocent. But most of that has gone now... I'm not that innocent as how I used to be. These days, a lot of thing has made me think a lot. Social issues, human rights, women rights, animal rights, climate change, nature... Things that I may not have thinking about it at all 11 years ago. One thing that stay the same with me is, how I'm still ...

Assalamualaikum and Hello. This is my 1st post for 2016 in this blog. I've been wanted to always keep updated on this blog but as always procrastination make me failed to do it. Something that I really should be fixed this year. I really wish and hope my action will speak louder for this matter. Okay, back to the title of this post, I'm going to do a review a very recent finished kdrama I've watched, Empress Ki or 기황후.   The main poster for this drama Scene from the epilogue in episode 1

This would be my 4th post in 2015 and it's already in November haha... I guess I'm not really in the mood of updating this blog most of the time... Now, I still want to update on this blog tho cause this blog have most of the things that I wrote for the past 7 years.. it have a lot of my memories here... despite not being able update it on regularly, I definitely doesnt want to throw it away... when I was thinking whether I should just start a new blog or something, I reminded myself back my 2008 post, the innocence me that I posted in this blog... as long as blogspot is still alive, this blog will always be here :) 2015 I've watched a lot... and a lot of korean dramas... the old one, the new one... etc... Korean Dramas that I've watched in 2015:

It has been so much awhile lol Last I updated this blog was January of 2015 and that was like 6 months ago hahaha [Contains SPOILER of the drama] I dont want to rant about my life with this post but I want to post on the recent completed drama I watched which is called Producer (KBS, 2015) The synopsis or plot of this drama from AsianWiki

Yesterday I was in Korean Movies mood. So I apparently watched 3 movies lol Suddenly doesnt want to watch k-drama and now that drama is still on hold hehe I start with A Werewolf Boy or 늑대 소년. A 2012 movie. It has been awhile I want to watch this movie but didnt got the chance to watch it and now finally I got the chance to. Okay, a bit of synopsis about the movie from Asianwiki.